More like a rant..........................…

all my life, i've always been attracted to the lighter skin color. due to my geographic location back then, i usually settled for black men.i noticed there was never any chemistry, not because of the black men (they were all great) but my taste was pretty defined. then i moved from my birth country to canada, i noticed that white guys never walked up. i mean, i always get this feeling that they are 'digging' me but their actions say otherwise. most of the white guys i've encountered just wanted me for and all but i believe intimacy and all that stuff are meant for people in love (my opinion, don't judge). i know the problem is not me because i consider myself to be attractive; i'm black, 5"9' and weigh 240lbs. my dad keeps telling me to not stress it because i'm still young (18), well i guess he's right but at this point of my life, i can say i haven't seen the light at the end of the tunnel and i'm scared it is going to remain like this because my taste in guys can never change (i think).